Today, i finished my defense of my paper, actually i really did not have any confidence of it, i constructed the new model which included too many complicated computations as well as many strange results,i just wished i could pass the defense, however the result is beyond my imagination, i got"tres bien", the professors said though my english writting is terrible and presentation is not clear, it("teamwork in academia") is original and the idea inside is very new and make sense, i try to find the interaction btw the discrimination against female researchers in academic market and the economic decisions...^_^, anyway i will begin new life, i talked with my professor and told her i really need some professional experiences as well as improvement of my english, may be one day i will come back to the compus, she gave me lots of courages and advices, i think i will restart to study one day, but this time i will choose the major i have interest in, "organizations" is a mistake for me............................really. i will try to improve my english in two years, i mean the real english writting but "chinglish" one.most of times i felt no barriers of listening and talking, everyday i talked happily with my friends and listened "franglais"without any difficulties, i  didn't find the truth that my english actually is very bad...i should notice this problem and try to make progress, and also my french, language is not easy to learn, finally i prove this "proposition".KAO~~~~ en tout cas, c'est vraiment fini, la station prochaine, a paris~~~ toulouse c'est mon seconde pay natale...i will miss toulouse forever and ever.